My Story

Life as we know it, isn’t easy; is it better now, will it get better, these are the answers that you have to find out for yourself, my story below might be of help.
Things were good but not always great.
Religiously I used to pray regularly since I am like 15 years old, never missed one; so basically thinking I was the pious one.  And I thought I was blessed, I got whatever I wanted always, nothing could have stopped me from growing.
Had a perfect life, money and perfect health; seemed like everything was under control.
Just minor emotional things my sensitivities and insecurities and regular jealousies here and there that we all have as a normal person.
I thought things would always be in control, all I had to do was work hard and be determined in life. That s the key to success right.
I always have been a good person,

I didn’t rob or kill people; just an average person who would enjoy life. Most things I would do were gossip, backbiting, jealousy, insecurity which isn’t a sin or is it.

So what could go wrong if I had everything and was stable financially, aren’t these the things we all feel complete us.
They are pretty much what we all dream of, a good marriage, money and a stable job, right.
Well lets go to flashback, since I was a kid, I wanted to make it big, be it a better person or a big celebrity but someone who made an impact on peoples lives and made big bucks too (might as well eh).
Any who, how would I have known that there was something else coming my way.
So this is the part where life drama starts; few years ago I got hit by my luck, I got ill, very ill. I dint know what to do, doctors still don't know much about such illness, autoimmune chronic illnesses such a pain they are.

 Now this wasn’t in my plan, and nor was I prepared to deal with it, imagine a person who plans everything did not plan for a stupid illness. I lived my life with huge plans, goals, dreams, and all crashed in a single moment.
What do you think I felt, shattered a small word for my pain. I was miserable, I went for counseling, they listened and and just listened, I cried everyday for years to God and asked him WHY me, WHY me, what did I do wrong, where did I go wrong.
Some days I would be patient and most days would complain. Family, friends noticed how pathetically miserable and sad I had become, I turned into a looser because I thought I was one.

For years I prayed, some days I smiled and tried to deal with things, some days had moments of happiness, but to sum it all up, deep inside I remained sad,  not satisfied with my quality of life and unanswered to all the questions that burn a hole in our hearts.

I had to quit my job, I had to give up on dreams, I was in pain and yet my illness was invisible. People who were behind me once, were moving ahead of me in life. I felt this life was a rat race and my goals would make me win.

So I kept praying, one day it got worst. I was in physical pain, I argued in my prayer and said it wasn’t fair to me.
Because I didn’t know better, I am human after all, I had no patience then.
It makes sense now, when people say to every question there’s an answer. And when there is no answer, it means that’s good for you or be patient.
So in my happy moments again, I visited my friend in her city few months after and she goes to this Qur’an class (religious), so I just tagged along with her for learning purpose. Not knowing what came ahead, I wanted to learn for the better. I am not extremely religious person, but I like to know what I am here for, what can I do to be a better person, I am aware of all my bad habits, basically I wanted to fix my broken self.
Arrahman Arraheem is the platform, an institute for such broken people, broken hearts, to be honest I was skeptical at first, but Allah (God) makes a path for His believer. You get cleaned from all garbage and gutter in your head.
Just like any other average person, I was curious to find out if my source was the right place, so like many other people I Google and read garbage they say about this institute, but again if I had stopped then; I would have never been healed spiritually. I actually don’t believe in things until I try it out for myself(I know smart eh).
A non profit organization based in Pakistan, Asia, North America for people who need support, for people who belong to any religion, color or cast as humanity has no bars.

My teacher Babar Chaudhry (may God bless him) is a real teacher of Qur’an, not what we learnt when I was a kid, some Arabic with no meaning. Or when I read myself English translation without knowing who Allah is. How can I be following Allah without knowing Him.

I did not know that learning and actually implementing what I learnt was 2 different things, some days I would just get overwhelmed and some days I would take it seriously.  I was born in a Muslim family, yet I did not know who I prayed to spiritually, because all I did was physically worship, I thought that we would pray regularly and will get what we want always the way we wanted, my own make believe God.
I prayed to ask for things, I did not know that what was like following his instructions or loving Allah and I did not know what happens when you enter world of Allah spiritually.
How would you feel if I was just fiends with you to use you.

So I tried it,  Qur’an, I read, I felt, I heard, I asked, and then I implemented and followed on whatever I learnt daily, and here I am, back on track and way stronger then ever before. And I will continue to learn Inshallah until the day I die, and follow so may I enjoy life here and get bonus in the world here after.

My teacher has taught from the Qur’an The book of Allah, I have never heard a word other then from this book.
Who Allah is, why am I here, how to read and practice Qur’an, and why are we tested, or why when problems fall upon us, how should we act.
What is patience, and why should I be content and be thankful for everything I have already.
Babar R. Chaudhry , an amazing personality who teaches you with his heart and soul, his noble mission to help people, to help them understand that Allah wants us to be free of worries and not be sad. This is the message of Allah, and one day I will help others heal too.
But if you are still reading this then I hope you feel what I have been through, a full on 360 degrees change of character and personality. A pessimistic approach to life that sees bright light now.

Well I don’t think I was put on a test by Allah, I think I just had to make some corrections on my fake self and be on His right side. And I am sure Arrahman Arraheem is the ride that will help me to get there.
Things changed for the good, I became stronger, it somehow did somethings to my life, I have pain but I learnt to deal better with it.

I am doing pretty well today, no miraculously I am not of perfect health but my mental health has improved which has changed a lot of other negative side effects like sadness and depression; I know that things happen for a reason, but what I learnt is no mater how much we plan, or no matter how rich we are, or how big we are in life but just know that we can’t be bigger then Allah.
I learnt that I can either be on good side and be happy here and the life after or I can be on the bad side and live depressed sad pathetic looser forever.
My insecurities, jealousy, loneliness is all vanishing, off course I am human I still think of bad things but I rubbish them right away because I know that God  is enough for me and I don’t need negativity in my life.
And trust me, my teacher and this non profit institute will not let me forget Allah, his motivation and the positive environment keeps people like me going. Knowing that someone is watching over me always, Allah and His system or angels and with this hope I am changing for the better each day.
You know how we prepare for certification exam to get ahead of our careers, well I am preparing myself for the biggest exam of this life and death and I am not going back in the darkness ever again.
So this was my brief story (are you awake still… hmm)
So may God help you all get there, and may you all find the right path,
Do share your positive life story, and how light has impacted on your life for the better.